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A Dill PickleAnd then, after six years, she saw him again. He was seated at one of those little bamboo tables decorated with a Japanese vase of paper daffodils. He was peeling an orange. He must have felt that shock of recognition in her for looked up and met her eye! Incredible! He didnt know her. She smiled, he frowned. She came towards him. He closed his eyes an instant, but opening them his face lit up as though he had struck a match in a dark room. He laid down the orange and pushed back his chair. Vera! he exclaimed. How strange. Really, for a moment I didnt know you. Wont you sit down? Wont you have some coffee?Yes, Id like some coffee. And she sat down opposite him. Youve changed. Youve changed very much, he said, staring at her with eager, lighted look. You look so well. Ive never seen you look so well before. Really? She raised her veil and unbuttoned her high fur collar. I dont feel very well. I cant bear this weather, you know.Ah,no. You hate the cold.Loathe it. She shuddered. And the worst of it is that the older one grows. He interrupted her. Excuse me, and tapped on the table for waitress. Please bring some coffee and cream. To her: You are sure you wont eat anything? No, thanks. Nothing.Then thats settled. And smiling he took up the orange again. You were saying-the older one grows- The colder, she laughed. But she was thinking how well she remembered that trick of his-the trick of interrupting her-and of how it used to exasperate her six years ago. The colder, he echoed her words, laughing too. Ah, ah. You still say the same things and there is another thing about you that is not changed at all- your beautiful voice. I dont know what it is- Ive often wondered-that makes your voice such a -haunting memory. Do you remember that first afternoon we spent together at Kew Garden? You were so surprised because I did not know the names of any flowers. I am still just as ignorant for all your telling me. But whenever its very fine and warm, and I see some bright colour I hear your voice saying:Geranium, marigold, and verbena, You remember that afternoon? Oh,yes,very well. She drew a long, soft breath. Yet, what had remained in her mind of that particular afternoon was an absurd scene. A great many people taking tea in a Chinese pagoda, and he behaving like a maniac about the wasps-waving them away, flapping at them with his straw hat, serious and infuriated out of all proportion to the occasion. How she had suffered.But now, as he spoke, that memory faded. His was the truer.Yes, it had been a wonderful afternoon, full of flowers and -warm sunshine. Her thoughts lingered over the last two words. And in the warmth, as it were, another memory unfolded. She saw herself sitting on a lawn. He lay beside her, and suddenly, he rolled over and put his head in her lap.I wish, he said in a low, troubled voice, I wish that I had taken poison and were about to die- here now!She leaned over him.Ah, why do you say that?But he gave a kind of soft moan, and taking her hand he held it to his cheek.Because I know I am going to love you too much. And I shall suffer so terribly, Vera, because you never, never will love me.He was certainly far better looking now than he had been then. He had lost all that dreamy vagueness and indecision. Now he had the air of a man who has found his place in life. He must have made money, too. His clothes were admirable, and at that moment he pulled a Russian cigarette case out of his pocket.Wont you smoke?Yes, I will. She hovered over them. They look very good. I get them made for me by a little man in St Jamess Street. I dont smoke very much, but when I do, they must be delicious. Smoking isnt a habit with me; its a luxury-like perfume. Are you still so fond of perfumes? Ah, when I in Russia.She broke in:Youve really been to Russia? Oh, yes. I was there for over a year. Have you forgotten how we used to talk of going there?No, Ive not forgotten.He gave a strange half laugh and leaned back in his chair.Isnt it curious? I have really carried out all those journeys that we planned. In fact, I have spent the last three years of my life travelling all the time. Spain, Corsica, Siberia, Russia, Egypt. The only country left is China, and I mean to go there, too, when the war is over.As he spoke, so lightly, tapping the end of his cigarette against the ashtray, she felt the strange beast that had slumbered so long within her bosom stir, stretch itself, yawn, prick up its ears, and suddenly bound to its feet, and fix its longing, hungry stare upon those far away places. But all she said was, smiling gently:How I envy you.It has been, he said, Wonderful-especially Russia. I even spent some days on a river boat on the Volga. DO you remember that boatmans song that you used to play?Yes. It began to play as she spoke.Do you even play it now?No, Ive no piano. He was amazed at that. Bfut what has bee of your beautiful piano?She made a little grimace.Sold. Ages ago.But you were so fond of music, he wondered.Ive no time for it now.said she.He let it go at that. That river life, he went on, is something quite special. After a day or two you cant realize that you have even known another. And it is not necessary to know the language- the life of the boat creates a bond between you and the people thats more than sufficient. You eat with them, pass the day with them, and in the evening there is that endless singing.She shivered, hearing the boatmans song break out again loud and tragic, and seeing the boat floating on the darkening river with melancholy trees on either side.Youd like almost everything about Russia life, he said warmly. Its so informal, so impulsive, so free. And then the peasants are so splendid. I remember the evening some friends and I went for a picnic by the Black Sea. We took supper and champagne and ate and drank on the grass. And while we were eating the coachman came up.Have a dill pickle, he said. He wanted to share with us: That seemed to me so right, so -you know what I mean?And she seemed at that moment to be sitting on the grass beside the mysteriously Black Sea, black as velvet, and rippling against the banks in silent, velvet waves. She saw the little group on the grass, their faces and hands white in the moonlight. Apart from them, with his supper in a cloth on his knees, sat the coachman. Have a dill pickle, said he, and although she was not certain what a dill pickle was, she saw the greenish glass jar with a red chili like a parrots beak.Yes, I know perfectly what you mean, she said.In the pause that followed they looked at each other. In the past when they had looked at each other like that they had felt that their souls had, as it were, put their arms round each other and dropped into the same tea, content, to be drowned, like mournful lovers. But now, he said: What a marvelous listener you are. When you look at me with those wild eyes I feel that I could tell you things that I would never breathe to another human being.Was there just a hint of mockery in his voice? She could not be sure.How well I remember one night, the night that I brought you the little Christmas tree, telling you all about my childhood. And of how I was miserable that I ran away and lived under a cart in our yard for two days without being discovered. And you listened, and your eyes shone, and I felt that you had even made the little Christmas tree listen too, as in a fairy story.The dog was called Bosun, she cried, delightedly.But he did not follow. What dog? Had you a dog?No, no. I meant the yard dog when you were a little dog.He laughed and snapped the cigarette case to.Was he? Do you know I had recognized you today- I had to take such a leap back to that time. He drummed on the table Ive often thought how I must have bored you. And now I understand so perfectly why you wrote to me as you did- although at the time that letter nearly finished my life. I found it again the other day, and I couldnt help laughing as I read it, It was so clever-such a true picture of me. He glanced up. Youre not going?She had buttoned her collar again and drawn down her veil.Yes, I am afraid I must,she said, and managed a smile.Ah, no,please,he pleaded. Dont go just for moment, and he caught up one of her gloves from the table and clutched at if as if that would hold her. I see so few people to talk to nowadays, that I have turned into a sort of barbarian, he said.Have I said something to hurt you?Not a bit. She lied. But as she watched him draw her glove through his fingers, gently, gently, her anger really did die down.What I really wanted then, he said softly,was to be a sort of carpet- for you to walk on so that you need not be hurt by the sharp stones and the mud you hated so. It was nothing more selfish than that. Only I did desire, eventually, to turn into a magic carpet and carry you away to all those lands you longed to see.As he spoke she lifted her head as though she drank something; the strange beast in her bosom began to purr . . . I felt that you were more lonely than anybody else in the world, he went on, and yet, perhaps, that you were the only person in the world who was really, truly alive. Ah, God! What had she done! How had she dared to throw away her happiness like this! This was the only man who had ever understood her. Was it too late? Could it be too late? And then the fact that you had no friends and never had made friends with people. How I understood that, for neither had I. Is it just the same now? Yes, she breathed. Just the same. I am as alone as ever. So am I, he laughed gently, just the same.Suddenly with a quick gesture he handed her back the glove and scraped his chair on the floor. But what seemed to me so mysterious then is perfectly plain to me now. And to you, too, of course. . . . It simply was that we were such egoists, so self-engrossed, so wrapped up in ourselves that we hadnt a corner in our hearts for anybody else. Do you know, he cried, naive and hearty. She had gone. He sat there, thunder-struck, astounded beyond words.